Well, it's been a while since I blogged, so I thought I would take some time to do so. I feel like I am getting less and less creative. Kinda. The funny part is I feel like I used to write blog entries that were much more interesting and creative, but then I go back and read them, and I realize that they were far from interesting or creative.
I don't think anyone reads this thing much anyways these days. But that's okay. I mostly keep my blog to keep myself entertained. I love going off on random stuff. And even though looking back on the old stuff embarrasses me a little bit, I must admit it does give me a good laugh. I mean...Imagine reading all this stuff I write 20 years from now. It'll be simply hilarious. It's literally another journal. I love it.
I've learned a lot about myself the last few weeks. I was planning on going into details and what not, but I just now realized that it wouldn't be a good idea. But it does satisfy me to say that I often find that I am disappointed in myself. I feel like I returned home from my mission with a good vision in mind of what I needed to do and what I needed to be. I started off alright, but then quickly corrected my small mistakes. And I was on a roll.
But I feel like I've lost a lot of that vision. I've simply lost my priorities. In the middle of school, work, and other worries, I often find myself doubting and fearing what lies ahead. I do, however, have a strong desire to keep on doing what's right and reevaluating myself so I can get back on the right track. But the truth is I am just a lonely person, and I am desperate for a friend or two. I know it's not true, but I am starting to feel--little by little--that people are forgetting about me.
But why am I complaining? Haha. I need to just get over it, go on some dates, and get married or something. Yes. That's it. That's the solution. I need to find the One. At least then I will have someone to love and support me during life's greatest challenges. :) Now...if only it were as easy as it looks. :/ Haha.
But until then: I am looking forward to going on a run with my little brother Logan in about an hour. The kid really loves basketball, and he wants to start getting in shape and begin training so that he can play varsity next year. I am also looking forward to my two day road trip up to Utah with Timmy. It'll be good for both of us. I'll keep you posted.
1 comment:
Dudes I know exactly what you mean. I never tell anyone that I feel lonely cause it would sound rediculous... I have friends i do stuff with, I have all my siblings, I have my family and people I talk to all the time, but maybe its the no-companion disorder brought on by the mission that makes me feel alone. The solution is there it just isnt easy hahaha although for some methinks it is
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